After some time I’m feeling this way, Feeling lonely and feeling dismay. In just near past, laughter was around, There was talk, n cheerful sound. I was feeling happy, feeling content, Years of my life, I’d happily spent. Made friends, who’d always be there, Who would love me, who’d care. I was different for ‘the rest of the world’, For my people, I was their pearl. I opened up to them, felt comfortable, Made my cribs, however unreasonable. They let me be myself n not pretend, This is how, difficult times I’d spend. But, now it seems, times have changed, I’m feeling empty, feelin’ strange. Shadows are close, always near me, It’s the warm bodies which elude me. Often, I feel I’ve reached the destination, Alas, t’was just another hallucination. Pretence is the price I have to pay, For making people with me, stay. There’s a lot of haziness, fog all around, That have no answers, such questions abound.

Had lovely breezes flowing for quite long, Or, that’s what seemed while t’was hail n storm. Spring might have set in, flowers abloom, Feels like autumn, sprinkled with gloom. Oh, where lies my treasure, Of cheers, laughter and absolute pleasure? Of gratitude in prayers, n peace of mind, A relaxing feeling, “I can now unwind”. I can’t change people, not even time, But somehow, the tinkling wind chimes, Say the breeze will again flow, Tearing mist apart, the Sun will show. My friends, acquaintances will stay near, Who make me find this life so dear. Winds of change will surely set in, Which will make me happy, deep within!

Oh darling, I miss you so, You not here, is my woe, Why at all did you go away? Was it your word, or my say? I want you to care for me, Share each of my agony, Tell me that I’m not alone, Promise you’ll never be gone. I want you by my side, So that I can hold you tight, When I don’t even know, Why it is that I am feeling low. Can you come back now? I won’t let you go, I vow, I’ll tell how much I care, Moments of love, darling, are rare, Pamper and spoil me with love, Still it’ll never be enough, Give me warmth and comfort, Tell me you are my Sweetheart, Shower on me, your emotions, It’ll work like magic potion, I will fulfill all your whims, Light of love’ll never be dim, Lips sealed with a kiss, Oh, our moments of bliss, Lost in your embrace, Will be my sacred space, I have to tell you all of this, It’s you, whom I badly miss, Oh come back, please do, You know, yes, I love you. (32)

Take all your space u want, Not gonna bother u nomore, Life with me for u’s not gud, I end up making it a bore. You r a free bird, The sky’s open for u, Spread ur wings as much as u want, U just hv urself to stop u. I ain’t not gonna bug u, Nomore gonna not let u sleep, M on my own too, My own shoulder on, to weep. Made u stay just with me, Was cruel, controlling ur life, Guess m not the one, Meant to b ur wife. Each flower doesn’t smell well, That does, might not b real, M one such fakie, Go, get urself another gal. Nomore trying not to hurt me, Ur freed of all ur chains, Plz stay away from me, Might relieve u of ur pains. Restrictions r now gone, Grow ur beard, fag n booze, M gonna stay in my cocoon now, Goin’ now for a long snooze. Shudn’t love u by changing u, Prob’ly accept u the way u are, But, now not a possibility, Me has gone really really far (away). So, lemme say my gudbye, Had the time of my life with u, Who could make me feel so gud, Alas, are people very few! (36)